Enraged: The evil of the world

     Good day to all. I know it has been a while since I have written, and the only reason that I could think-of when I return into writing is when I have a feeling in my heart that I have to let go. Writing has been a good stress reliever for me in instances when I feel nerved by circumstances that bothers me to the point of frustration. I always had the feeling that if I write something, there must be a reason for it or a drive that motivates me. I don't write things that don't really bring much importance to me. This is what separates this blog from professional writers who are worked-up into writing their column every day of the week. My writings come from inspiration. An inspiration driven by joy, anger, frustrations, sadness, and etc.

     I come with a burden that seem to emanate the whole evil that continues to exist in this world. Although the idea is understandable because the world in itself, is not perfect. Yet, I continue to strive in helping the world to be a better place. If only I could inspire others, not for personal attainment, but to simply make a difference. I don't need respect. I just want people to understand that actions that create this world will determine whether life is either a sanctuary or a hell on earth. I just hope for the neutral side. I am against every unrighteous actions that continues to affect lives of countless people. The point that I want to create, is that if you do something, it must be carefully thought out to the point of not having an expense on others.

     I believe that an action is wrong, if the people and their environment are being affected in a negative way at their expense. I work on ethics as a key role and function to our society even if some people believe atheistically. Even without faith, I know atheists can function well in our society. I have come to understand the vast knowledge and progress of science in this world. I myself regard my own as a little bit of a physicist. I just think that the purpose in life or I should say "fate" on people are compromised with the idea of atheism. The truth may be quite hard to figure out at this moment. As a natural skeptic, I would think that even if religion is false, I have benefited from a psychological advantage and standpoint in life.

     Still, I believe in God and my faith remains strong in this respect. I would like to really mix-in the vast scientific knowledge in accordance with my faith. I have seen the evidence, especially the topic on the recurrent laryngeal nerve which was quite controversial. For the most part, I too believe in evolution but this bad design as people put it, is a perfect design, in a sense that, without evolution to happen, the perfect design of man could not be accomplished. For, in my opinion, the integral part that makes a man so-called "perfect" in such a way is its knowledge, which gave way to human consciousness. I may be a minority, but I know most scientists who believe in a religion would agree with me, that evolution could actually mix-in with God's holy will.

     There are a lot of things that enrage me in this world, especially when people are forced into things that are against their will. I am against the violence on women and children. I just feel so enraged knowing there is nothing I can do when a damage has been done. There is something in me that wants to beat-up that @#$% person. It just bothers me when I think about this. I had to relieve my stress either by slamming the heavy bag hard with my rage or writing a blog post to express myself.  Just recently I have stumbled upon a video that shows an old man forcing a minor into prostitution. It just sickens me, and the next time I will train with the heavy bag, I will imagine his face getting pummeled with my rage.

     I know that it is in our nature to be sexual beings, that I understand, but bringing a minor and taking advantage on situations that blunder a persons entire being, is absolutely outrageous. I am pleased to see that man in cells. There is a difference with both parties going at it because they both want it, and a person getting forced for in the expense of another. It is in this reason that I continue to work on my advocacy and change the world even if I have nothing much to offer. With simple writings that I place through the internet, let my feelings be felt and heard. Let us not be blind and succumb to these injustices. Let the history of these atrocities create a spark in ourselves to denounce the evil that wreck havoc in this planet.

     Let us create a better place, by respecting, loving, and learning from one another. Let us not make war. The era of great nations is obsolete to me. I believe we are all the same human beings that roam forth this earth. With the increased global warming, let us all work and utilize our technologies for our planet. Let us stop deforestation and use earth-friendly energy sources. We can all do it. Let us not wait for a time that our ozone layer is nothing more. It took billions of years for our planets evolution to produce the ozone. It is the ozone that makes life on land possible. I encourage everyone to work for or simply just be aware in the current issues, for the betterment of our world.

"The Zone"

As you walk into the gloom, and turned on the lights. You see the heavy bag, a pair of gloves, and some shoes. Seeing the heavy bag, let's you recall the past successes that you've been training with it. As you see the shoes, your mind instantly tells you, "Who cares!?", so you left it. You decided to pick up the gloves and wear them, being too excited that you don't even wear the hand wraps anymore. So you started throwing a jab on the bag. It started spinning, and as it spins, you hit it with a hard right hand. As you see the bag flung through your power, you felt awe, that somehow triggered an indescribable feeling. Something that somehow surpasses, Holy, Love, Achievement, Sex, and other complex feelings in this world. A feeling of intense energy, that seems unlimited for that moment. Being able to hit harder than expected. Feeling an Increased stamina, for that very splendid moment. Others call it, "Adrenaline Rush", but I call it.. "The Zone". True to studies, adrenaline does help in physical performance. As a boxer, the feeling is not a stranger to me. You can feel it when the trigger comes. As for me, I get "The Zone", when I see an opponent staggering. So I continue to pummel, until the feeling is gradually lost. The after effect will make you feel the tiredness, that you should have felt on that rush. On "The Zone", you somehow, forget everything that keeps a man, human. You will feel perfect, without hesitation. Perhaps, this is one reason, why fighters continue to fight, it's not about the money, but it's more about the feeling. Amateurs wouldn't know what I'm talking about until they experienced them. Just think, If only you could sustain that moment longer, you will indefinitely be indestructible. In that moment, feeling like a God, is unavoidable.

Conclusion:

Adrenaline rush, or how I call it "The Zone", is a specialized way of a human to protect itself, placing it's full potential on brief moments, or depending on how stressful an environment has become. Again, it is triggered by the Fight or Flight response, which is also triggered by stress. Although the feeling, I've felt is not the flight response type, but the fight type, and is coinciding with the boxing saying "Killer instincts". Remember, being the threat is more relaxing, than being at threat. Through experience, a constant burst of "The Zone", will develop a sense of contentment, well-being, and happiness, which is perhaps the after effect of exercise, since adrenaline is released with endorphins at the same time. It may also develop an optimistic and narcissistic approach in life, but it all depends on the person. I theorize, that primitive species of humans, are far more physically controlling, and that adrenaline rush is created, through the evolution of man, because of the inactive fighting lifestyle of man. As we get civilized, brute force is less used nowadays, so we diminish ourselves from our truest potential, but to protect our species, our body has found a way to trigger the same primitive strength, but only on few moments called "The Zone", in order to use the actual human strength, as was the case in the past.

Final Thoughts:

I sometimes say things to people like.. "If you can feel the feeling that I feel right now, or if I can share it to the world, the world would be a better place, everyone will be so contented and happy." I theorize that it may be the effect of both the adrenaline and endorphins. So if you're feeling depressed and want to feel great, then try a workout session now, because the feeling stays for long, so go use that adrenaline! I'm inspired to write this post a week ago, because of it's significance, especially today, where I started again back to my usual training regimen. Today I used 18 oz gloves (A pretty heavy glove that I wanted to replace for a lighter one) which clearly reduced my efficacy, speed, and power. The impact was reduced, but I still managed to drop the heavy bag from it's chains, nonetheless. Adrenaline must be the culprit for that sudden increase in punching power.

Negative to Positive

Recently, I've had been confused on certain matters, that I never thought I'd be concerned of, but in the back of my mind, I knew, eventually, I will have to face them. These problems though, have only surfaced after taking a brief period of rest in my training regimen. Just as I've said in the past, I had to focus on academics, and had stopped my favorite training (Heavy Bag, because I dropped it several times, in the peak of my conditioning and power). I usually drive off stress through boxing. In psychological talk, I utilize a combination of coping mechanisms to fight stress. I use both Sublimation and Displacement, both driving me to physical excellence, and a positive mindset. In the absence of it, I felt a bit, empty, although watching a boxing match can suffice the need for it, but in time, it has become too far and too less. I began to take stress on the inside, the sensation of burning your heart with hate, remorse, and revenge. I never felt anything like it in a long time. I knew at that time, I needed to get back. I thought that maybe, I should learn other ways to take on stress, and not be dependent on the heavy bag. So I went on, and until now, I've ended up empty. Nothing feels much better for me, than to train towards excellence. It reminds me of the days, when I was contented with my lifestyle, in the past. The days where I watch boxing matches, that made me so excited and pumped up, that it never fails to put me on my feet. The feeling of adrenaline rushing through your veins, when you punch. Admiring your strength, grit, perseverance, and taking it more than your limits at the time that it matters the most. A day of contentment, and a promise of a bright future, and every single day, gives you a reason to smile. I've felt it now, and have raised the heavy bag, back on the chains. With two new reinforced steel grips, I will never be disappointed. After a day of doing this training, after a long time of inactivity, I noticed the physiological changes in my body's chemistry. I have been positive once again, and not as prone to depression as was the case in the past. As I've studied, I begin to believe, that this positive effect is caused by the combination of both adrenaline and endorphins, secreted throughout my system, as an effect of the exercise I did. It works well on my well-being, and I'm loving every moment of life. And so, I will keep on pouring the punches til' I'm contented. Every punch will be an inspiration to fight adversity, and making myself a better person. As I inspire myself, I hope to inspire others as well. That even the weak, becomes strong, and that all problems, can be overcome with faith. God will bring you to your greatest if you believe in him. I will say, that I have no beliefs that I am great, but I do believe, that there is a God, and that he is great. I may be strong, but it is God, who allowed it. All through out, I've learned, that a fighter's instincts will remain, even if days, or months of inactivity will occur in a fighter, just give him a pair of gloves, and a heavy bag, he will always resurrect his older self. The killer's instinct will not die, it will always be a part of what a true fighter is made of, from the trials he has overcome, to the toughness that he has built in him. The essence of a Champion, is the ability to overcome challenges, and face adversity, yet is still strong, despite the negative factors that surrounds him. It is determined on how you stay on your feet, even if your body say's "Go down", or your mind play's tricks on you, and say "Give up, it's hopeless." A Champion remains standing and strong. When you love something which is natural, it will always be a part of you. As that's said, Boxing will always be a part of me no matter what, despite the risks of physical complications that surround it. It all started with discovering great power, being passionate for the game, and a mindset of a champion. It's all a learning process.

Picture: A snapshot of the video game, Fight Night Round 4, showing Erik "El Terrible" Morales throwing a left handed body shot on the Heavy Bag.

How strong am I?

I get the feeling of questioning myself whether my power is capable for a punchers status or not. Then that question lingers to my mind once again. How strong am I? I learned my potentials in boxing when I discovered my God-given talents about five years ago. It was tremendous punching power, that the normal person would see as, an unbelievable force to live with. It is an unnatural power that I am perhaps born with. I see it, as a gift from God, or was it simply genetics. To be honest, in my family, I've got no relative who was a fighter. It must be an unrecognized gift in the gene passed down from my ancestors, that my relatives are not aware. If it must be genetics, then I must not only be the one in the family to experience this unbelievable amount of strength, and possessing it is one more serious issue. I guess, I will be the first to utilize it into such lengths, as a fighter. Perhaps, the first in the family to do so. The gift of speed, is one thing I think, my gene is responsible for. Just imagine, me as a middleweight, throwing fast punches like a featherweight. In those days though, stamina was a problem, so thank God, I lost the weight. In totality, I think my gene is capable of tremendous punching power and speed. If it isn't from my genes, then its Gods'. I'm honored in possessing such talent. One story to testify my strength, is the reason why I stopped doing the punching bag, and did abdominal work out in the first place. I really did not want to stop doing the punching bag, it just gave up on me. I was starting to train my power so much, I think it surpassed my level from when I learned my punching power. It was devastating, that I believe, If someone or something was to be hit with my fist, they'd get knocked out in an instant. A punch of a mike tyson caliber. I just did what I wanted, which is to punish the bag, training everyday. After a tremendous shot, the metal broke, and left the heavy bag falling to the floor. I then was disappointed, as I wanted to do some more workout at the moment. So I bought a new and improved metal connector, which is thicker than the first. I bought it like about three and half dollars, I really chose the thickest, so it would never give up on me. It was great at first, but after three days, it snapped after I connected a solid right hand. I was disappointed, for one, I wanted to do some workout but now I can't, and two, I wasted my money for even the thickest metal won't work. I then hitched it up to a strong rope, in the idea that, it would be able to resist, cause it would bend. In the end, it still failed. It was not only in this three instances that this has occurred, but it has happened multiple times. I then gave up the heavy bag training. It is fun, but when you keep fixing it, and especially carrying the damn thing back up, it just pisses me off. So in the end, I left it in the corner of my room. The thing that is hard about not doing the training is that you won't be able to do some displacement, if you know what I mean. The feeling of hate, which is cured in an hour of training is left inside, which makes me miserable. Nonetheless, It must not be relied, so I can better myself, and not be dependent on it. After not working the heavy bag, I've realized I was too much power, but not much speed. Now, I've corrected that, through shadow boxing. Fast hands, I have it. Somehow I feel, I've traded speed and lost a few power. Nonetheless, it must be for the better good. In boxing, power is useless if you can't hit anything. So at least, I had to adjust that. This event, also is the reason, why I've gotten serious in the ab workout and focusing in the region for now. Since I can't do heavy bag, its time I should work out my core. I still have a chiseled upper body, despite the absence of the strength workout. I learned that muscles really last even without stimulation over the course of time, just make sure you maintain a lifestyle for it. So the thing I should develop to perfection is the ab and my thigh. Those stuff, for the championship, what more can you ask. *chuckles* So how strong am I? Let's just see my professional fight, when I hit an opponent. If he staggers, it would be enough of an indication.

Picture: The punching power of Joe Louis

Disappointment

It's a huge disappointment as I, would have wanted to post videos in this blog. I took the video from my RAZR V3 cellphone. All converters failed on me when I tried to convert 3gp files to wmv. I tried online converters but to no avail. To all those programmers who ever reads this post, you should be damn working on finding a solution. If not, Motorola company should do something about this. This just sucks, and I don't usually say bad words on my posts until now, but it is a complete bulls***. The video that I would have posted shows me punishing the heavy bag. I was inspired because of the video that I saw in youtube about manny pacquiao vs. heavy bag video. If you're interested go to "http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i7dB_4yXPv4". Pacquiao just hammered the heavy bag. It was also the same thing I did in my supposed video. Anyway, try watching the video it surely is very interesting.